I've been in a bit of a blogging lull. More and more I find myself wanting to be in places where there are less people around. I'm not sure if that's healthy or not. It's one thing to maintain your own sanity but it's another to put up with everyone else's insanity. Not that I think I'm sane and everyone else is insane.. nothing like that..
Anyway, the other day someone in my family speaker phone ambushed me. Called me on speaker phone with another family member listening in the background and didn't tell me. When I asked if that person was there and could I talk to them I was told I was on speaker and they were right there.. I didn't think that was very cool. It's something I'd never do.
One of my friends once said that I try and avoid conflict and I think that's true. So in this conversation I didn't fall into any traps that may have been set for me. I avoided saying something that would allow the person calling me to be able to fault me, and yet now I haven't been able to let this go. The more I thought about it the more it bothered me. This family member lost my trust a few years back. I've tried to overlook it, and get past it. Forgive and forget, right? Then something like this happens and I remember why that trust was lost.
Not sure how to tie this post up. I guess there are some things that once broken can't be fully repaired. They are like that ceramic pot I once talked about that fell off of the shelf and broke into pieces. You can try and glue it back together and put it back up on the shelf, and if you stand back far enough you may not notice. But if you get very close to it all of the faults show back up.